my year in review
No, your eyes (and your RSS readers) are not deceiving you. It's a new post. Did y'all think I died or something? I don't blame you. But it's all good things keeping me busy and distracted from my blog, I assure you. So, here's a recap of my past year. I normally do these month-by-month but my memory is not nearly as sharp as it used to be and the months tend to bleed together. I'll do my best to reconstruct the timeline in some sort of chronological order but I make no promises.
At the beginning of the year, I was smack dab in the middle of my Weight Watchers program. I managed to get through the holidays with only a 1-1/2 pound gain. Even so, that was unacceptable so I really focused and fired up the Wii Fit that I got for Christmas and by the end of the program in February, I had lost a whopping 30 pounds. I put a few of them back on but I'm going back on the program in January and will lose those extras and few more for good measure. I also want to regain the chiseled shoulders and arms of my 20s. I will have guns if it kills me.
Uh, let's see... what else? Oh right, I wasn't writing here but I was writing, I promise. Some of you out there may have even been privy to some of said extra-curricular writing. :)
In the spring, I passed a major test of personal strength and I'm really proud of myself. If you'll recall, THE EX contacted me last summer and we exchanged a few emails and she asked to get together and I turned down the offer. I just wasn't ready. And our correspondence ended just as quickly as it started. Back in April or May, she started consuming my thoughts again. At the risk of sounding like a freak, I knew she was probing. And, sure enough, one day the thoughts of her that were banging around in my head were particularly strong and, that night, she contacted me. We exchanged a few intense emails. She apologized and admitted some things that I needed to hear. I had already moved on and achieved peace on my own but still, it was nice to have her admit what I knew deep down.
A week or two later, we met face to face for the first time in about 7 years. And I didn't die. I made it through the night unscathed. It was good to see her and it was good for me to see her in her current state, if that makes sense. She was clearly struggling and in transition. It was a real eye opener. Yeah, she still affects me but I didn't do or say anything dumb or incriminating or regretful. If anything, she let slip a few things that would have gotten her into big trouble with her boyfriend. Verbal bait was dangled and I didn't take it. I didn't trust myself at first but my oh my, how I've grown. Thoughts of her will always tempt me but I've now been tested and I didn't slip up.
There is no anger anymore, no big silence between us. It's no longer "tragic." Things are not 100% by any means but we exchange emails and texts here and there. She's since ditched her boyfriend (quelle surprise!) and taken up with another woman. Part of me feels vindicated because I knew she wasn't straight back then but, if I'm being honest, I liked being that special exemption in her life. But, like I said, she admitted some things to me so even though she's been with other women since, I know I'm still special to her.
Please note: When I originally wrote "Re: The Muppets," it was a means of working out some long, unresolved issues concerning that relationship. I didn't think she and I would ever speak again, much less see each other. After we hung out, I started to regret having something so personal about her out there for the world to see without her knowledge or consent. Her identity was never revealed but still, it just didn't feel right to keep the story on my blog so I've removed it. I saved it before deleting it so it's not lost forever but it served its purpose and it's time to move on.
But enough about that. In the spring, I also undertook "Operation Find Me Some Lesbian Friends Who Aren't Flaky Lunatics" and, sure enough, I succeeded. I have plenty of friends and acquaintances and I love them all dearly but there was a severe dearth of platonic lesbian pals in my universe. It bummed me out. So, I rolled up my sleeves and started socializing and going to various Meet-ups and Dyke Dinners (find the latter on Facebook! It's awesome!) and, along the way, I've met some amazing women and I'm grateful for each and every one of them. They rule. And, in a wonderful bit of cosmic fate, I was chatting with a lovely individual named Emily at a Dyke Dinner several months back. During the conversation, another friend mentioned my blog and after piecing together a few clues, Emily said, "You're not... Are you... Oh my God, you're Curly McDimple!" My reputation preceded me. Turns out, she had been a faithful reader of my blog. We had been friends for several months without realizing that we "knew" each other. How awesome is that? Emily was so generous with her praise of my writing and it done made me blush. It also made my day. Thank you again, Emily.
As it turns out, Emily's no slouch in the talent department herself. Check out her amazing singing and songwriting talents:
While I'm big pimping, I'd be remiss if I didn't shout out the efforts of the one, the only, The Lovely Jess. For the past few months, Jess has been hosting a weekly show on PhoebeTV.com called Party in Your Mouth. It only sounds like porn, I swear. Each week, Jess prepares a non-traditional dish for both traditional and non-traditional holidays. It's delightful and I look forward to episodes each and every Monday. Check out the most recent installment:
Awesome, right?
While you're there, check out PhoebeTV.com's other offerings including Musicology Smackdown, No Clue Movie Review and Chaos Theory. Here's the pilot episode of the latter. Watch it and get addicted or I will resume my long-dormant habit of posting pictures of The Hoff's barely-concealed junk.
All that shilling for my friends and loved ones made be forget my other 2009 highlights. Oh wait, duh. I got a new job! That's an important thing to remember. Yup, I freed myself from the misery of my last job and I've been toiling away at a new one since August and I'm much happier for it. It's not nearly as stressful as my last gig. In fact, I don't even have to use vacation time for the holidays as our office is closed for the next week. WOO HOO!
So, that's what's been up with me. I'm happier than I was a year ago and I'm grateful for it. 2009 was eventful but not always easy. I lost a beloved aunt and uncle within months of each other. My friends have lost loved ones and livelihoods and then there was that whole Celebrity Rapture thing. We've all seen a lot of grief and heartbreak in the last year so here's hoping 2010 is a better one. Happy New Year!
At the beginning of the year, I was smack dab in the middle of my Weight Watchers program. I managed to get through the holidays with only a 1-1/2 pound gain. Even so, that was unacceptable so I really focused and fired up the Wii Fit that I got for Christmas and by the end of the program in February, I had lost a whopping 30 pounds. I put a few of them back on but I'm going back on the program in January and will lose those extras and few more for good measure. I also want to regain the chiseled shoulders and arms of my 20s. I will have guns if it kills me.
Uh, let's see... what else? Oh right, I wasn't writing here but I was writing, I promise. Some of you out there may have even been privy to some of said extra-curricular writing. :)
In the spring, I passed a major test of personal strength and I'm really proud of myself. If you'll recall, THE EX contacted me last summer and we exchanged a few emails and she asked to get together and I turned down the offer. I just wasn't ready. And our correspondence ended just as quickly as it started. Back in April or May, she started consuming my thoughts again. At the risk of sounding like a freak, I knew she was probing. And, sure enough, one day the thoughts of her that were banging around in my head were particularly strong and, that night, she contacted me. We exchanged a few intense emails. She apologized and admitted some things that I needed to hear. I had already moved on and achieved peace on my own but still, it was nice to have her admit what I knew deep down.
A week or two later, we met face to face for the first time in about 7 years. And I didn't die. I made it through the night unscathed. It was good to see her and it was good for me to see her in her current state, if that makes sense. She was clearly struggling and in transition. It was a real eye opener. Yeah, she still affects me but I didn't do or say anything dumb or incriminating or regretful. If anything, she let slip a few things that would have gotten her into big trouble with her boyfriend. Verbal bait was dangled and I didn't take it. I didn't trust myself at first but my oh my, how I've grown. Thoughts of her will always tempt me but I've now been tested and I didn't slip up.
There is no anger anymore, no big silence between us. It's no longer "tragic." Things are not 100% by any means but we exchange emails and texts here and there. She's since ditched her boyfriend (quelle surprise!) and taken up with another woman. Part of me feels vindicated because I knew she wasn't straight back then but, if I'm being honest, I liked being that special exemption in her life. But, like I said, she admitted some things to me so even though she's been with other women since, I know I'm still special to her.
Please note: When I originally wrote "Re: The Muppets," it was a means of working out some long, unresolved issues concerning that relationship. I didn't think she and I would ever speak again, much less see each other. After we hung out, I started to regret having something so personal about her out there for the world to see without her knowledge or consent. Her identity was never revealed but still, it just didn't feel right to keep the story on my blog so I've removed it. I saved it before deleting it so it's not lost forever but it served its purpose and it's time to move on.
But enough about that. In the spring, I also undertook "Operation Find Me Some Lesbian Friends Who Aren't Flaky Lunatics" and, sure enough, I succeeded. I have plenty of friends and acquaintances and I love them all dearly but there was a severe dearth of platonic lesbian pals in my universe. It bummed me out. So, I rolled up my sleeves and started socializing and going to various Meet-ups and Dyke Dinners (find the latter on Facebook! It's awesome!) and, along the way, I've met some amazing women and I'm grateful for each and every one of them. They rule. And, in a wonderful bit of cosmic fate, I was chatting with a lovely individual named Emily at a Dyke Dinner several months back. During the conversation, another friend mentioned my blog and after piecing together a few clues, Emily said, "You're not... Are you... Oh my God, you're Curly McDimple!" My reputation preceded me. Turns out, she had been a faithful reader of my blog. We had been friends for several months without realizing that we "knew" each other. How awesome is that? Emily was so generous with her praise of my writing and it done made me blush. It also made my day. Thank you again, Emily.
As it turns out, Emily's no slouch in the talent department herself. Check out her amazing singing and songwriting talents:
While I'm big pimping, I'd be remiss if I didn't shout out the efforts of the one, the only, The Lovely Jess. For the past few months, Jess has been hosting a weekly show on PhoebeTV.com called Party in Your Mouth. It only sounds like porn, I swear. Each week, Jess prepares a non-traditional dish for both traditional and non-traditional holidays. It's delightful and I look forward to episodes each and every Monday. Check out the most recent installment:
Awesome, right?
While you're there, check out PhoebeTV.com's other offerings including Musicology Smackdown, No Clue Movie Review and Chaos Theory. Here's the pilot episode of the latter. Watch it and get addicted or I will resume my long-dormant habit of posting pictures of The Hoff's barely-concealed junk.
All that shilling for my friends and loved ones made be forget my other 2009 highlights. Oh wait, duh. I got a new job! That's an important thing to remember. Yup, I freed myself from the misery of my last job and I've been toiling away at a new one since August and I'm much happier for it. It's not nearly as stressful as my last gig. In fact, I don't even have to use vacation time for the holidays as our office is closed for the next week. WOO HOO!
So, that's what's been up with me. I'm happier than I was a year ago and I'm grateful for it. 2009 was eventful but not always easy. I lost a beloved aunt and uncle within months of each other. My friends have lost loved ones and livelihoods and then there was that whole Celebrity Rapture thing. We've all seen a lot of grief and heartbreak in the last year so here's hoping 2010 is a better one. Happy New Year!
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