anyone, anyone?

So I had a kooky dream last night. I think it took place on a commuter train like NJ Transit or the Long Island Rail Road. It definitely wasn't the subway. But then again, part of me thinks that the setting may have been a restaurant because I was sitting at a table with my friend. It's hard to decipher the location.

At one point, I stood up to say something to the waitress/conductor (again, not sure) and I noticed THE EX sitting alone in a row seats of against a wall. I have not seen her in over two years and I often wonder how I'll respond if I were to bump into her randomly. In my dream, I cordially sat down next to her and was quite friendly considering the emotional torture and anguish the girl heaped upon me a couple of years ago. Repeatedly.

Anyways, she looked like ASS. Mind you, THE EX is a stunner in real life but in my dream, it looked like she tried to dye her gorgeous chestnut brown hair blonde and well, there was burning and discoloration. It was also all long, wild and ratty-looking as opposed to her usual stylish, well-kept hairdo. In my dream, she kinda looked like Witchie-poo.

During our encounter, THE EX was really abrupt with me and seemed embarrassed to see me at that moment. I think she gave me a booklet or something and then I went back to the table where my female friend was sitting. To the untrained eye, it would appear that my friend and I were a couple and I relished the thought that it would make THE EX jealous. She walked past and looked at us in passing and that was it. I noticed a handwritten note in the pamphlet she gave me but I didn't bother reading it. Instead, I went back to the conversation with my friend completely unfazed.

I used to gobble up emails and letters from her like they were Krispy Kremes. Not this time though. Man, that feeling of "I couldn't give two shits!" was on par with some of the very good sex dreams I've had. I wish I could bottle it and take a swig whenever I start feeling mopey.

So does this mean I'm over her? What the hell is going on? I'm a complete dunce when it comes to allegory and symbolism so kindly feel free to take a stab at what's going on in this muddled mind of mine. Please and thank you.